AAR concert [ All american Rejects Concert ]

Well i am kinda pissed off at this concert cause they put at the wrong time but what to do, i might as well just attent it cause i got some tickets. The concert is on the 10 of october and 11 october will be the day i leave from Malaysia to Australia, and that sucks, but most of my mates are going anyways so i just tag along, well me and my mates will cry when they say its the last song, cause like i said in my previous blog time passes really fast, and tears of sadness will be shared, but i will never forget the day that all of my boys is there for me. Ouh ouh ouh 10 free tickets to both of this sexy female beast x] Felicia and Andrenne, 5 tickets each (; now you can see your sexy guys All American Rejects and i can my hot guys Pop Shuvit, and i am not gay, just think they are hot xD Here are the tickets will look like for those who have been wondering bout it, and ignore my randomness, i was bored, cheyeahh, so check it out.

I Am Sure I Can Do It.

You know most of my friends think that i couldnt make it in Australia, even for my cousin family, mainly because i use money like water, i love hanging out late and wont be focusing on my studies, and just loiter and play truancy in University, but never i am gonna do that. Actually my parents change college for me 2 times already, one is in Metroplitan, Subang, and the other one is PJCAD in Petaling Jaya, so you know parents cant really control and tolerate with me no more cause well i am spoiled kid, and always spend money like opening a tap hose. Well its time for me to be mature, to realize and to understand things, and handling problems without my family, my friend and my love one. I know before even going to australia i cried a few times, its cause i already started missing home, and everyone else, even i am still home in Malaysia, but most people knew my fear is be lonely ~ loneliness. Somehow i have to learn, gonna start cooking and washing my clothes again.

Well my friends ask me alot before i go, for example, are you going to find another girl ? are you coming back to malaysia or forever ? are u sure you can do it cause University is hard. Will you forget ur friends ? and much more, but i have been thinking bout these questions.

Based on the first one - Are you going to find another girl ? well my answer is definitely NO. well even if i am a girl if someone say that he wont leave me, obviously i wont believe, but somehow, he have to show me, But well to me i made a commitment towards her, but its not cause of the commitment then i have to do it. its causeshe stole my heart, and i could steal it back. I even told my friends, i wont spend my money to buy her unnessary things, but something she could enjoy, and the money comes from my birthday or christmas present and all. Well the only thing i would send and buy for her during her bday or valentines day, is food x] australia chips are cheap and nice, and there is still many kinds of food. To me i wont wanna depend on my mothers money to give her happiness, but i wanna do it my way, with my own earning, at least when i get my education and a job, i could be able to feed her and my family, and at that, i will give people real happiness by my sweat and blood. I mean for what i thought a few times, if i dont work hard, my parents will get ntg back from me, and what i promise to her is totally cheap words, and never i am gonna let none of this happen. I will be a gentlemen, once is commitment dont break it, dont do it with force do it willingly. But if one day she have another man, i couldnt do anything but just to wish for her happiness, but i hope she could wait, even 4 years its a long time but to me 4 blink of my eyes equally to 4 years, cause time pass very fast, and i dare to say i will never look at another girl anymore, you stole my heart and you own me, i am yours, i will never leave or forget you.

Based on the second one - Are you coming back to malaysia ? well towards that question its hard for me to answer as well. Cause if i could get a job which gives me a high pay i might just remain in australia but if there isnt i will either futher it to my Masters in UCLA or get a job in Malaysia, but if i do have a job in Australia, i will go back to Malaysia, and complete one more mission.

Based on the third question - are u sure you can do it cause University is hard. Well i say yeah, university is hard but i prefer taking overseas standard as well. In malaysia to be hoesntly speaking, we are really left behind, and other country is doing art in a much advance and spectacular way, but in University no lecturer will care bout you, if u dont ask, you will never understand. It depends on people whether they want to focus in your studies or not, cause what i have heard alot, they just teach all they can, concerntrate or not its your problem till the results come out, if the conclusion is fail then its your problem and they wont be responsible for it.

my last and final question - Am i going to forget my friends. Simple answer NEVER. but then my mates ask me how certain, well i got memories of picture and tattoo represent friends. Friends will remain forever, but the only thing is will you remember them in the future ? thats uncertain but i know i will remember, they all have lotsa memorable and gay tard memories with me, so cheyeahhh aint gonna happen at all.

Well i will be starting out a new life when i reach australia, i have to sleep early and do all my works, i cant be lazy or naughty no more, its tme for me to throw throw those away and seattle down, i promise everyone that i will come back with something. Make my self and everyone proud. Prove to everyone and i will say " If Daniel Fu Can Do It" Why couldnt you. Haha Terry gave me this x]

My Dream.

My dream is basically easy to predict. First of all i wanna have a good career, cause right now i am aiming to get masters in multimedia designing. No matter what i wanna work hard for it. My second is to be with the one i love again, seriously speaking, no one could replace her place n my heart, she gives me the best of everything that i could get from others at all, My third and final one is to have a family with the one i love. Its a big wish to dream for, but there is no harm in it, i hope my dream could work out, and i will archieve it, and i would not consider or think about it because this is what i've always wanted all these while (;

Ineedyou, imissyou, & iloveyou.

Even its just the last day of college for me, but i already felt like i am not in malaysia. At times at night i dreamt that i will be lonely, no friends or bro that i trust as much in Malaysia. I need everyone, my friends, my parents and my bro. I cant live without you guys, especially her. Having one last look at my classmates and her, i felt like tears are trying to burst out, but i have to hold back, but i wonder why i cried when i got home, Maybe is the fact that things are getting better, but i am leaving

I wonder how is it like to be alone in australia, i could hear her voice as much as i could, i could hold her nor hug her no more, and i dont even know whats the feeling like later. I dont only refer to her only but others as well, but she is the one who always puts a smile on my face.

I miss yesterday that i went to some where near your place and do the editing, and later went back to your house and continue. I am happy that even we argue on that day, at least we had fun. I miss hugging you and miss carrying you up and spinning you around. Deeply i need you and i miss you so so so so so much a 1000x as much as you couldnt ever imagine, and i love you the way i have before. I cried too much the fact that i see our pics, and i wonder how we are next time in the future? can we still remember each other and everything we knew about one another? One thing i will definitely do, is too acheive my dreams and make my commitment turn to reality, as what i have promised you. Even if one day you forget who am i, but i will always remember who you were, a girl that was there for me and puts a smile on my face, when i am always having a rough time.

My last expression.

Well everything are mainly settle and soon i am ready to go off to a new life, with a new hope, new future, and new beginning, as they say in australia, australia is a land full of opportunity. i am gonna remove all my tattoos, which mean that removing all my memories, which i dont like to do it as well, but i wanted a new image and all. Memories that i have through out all this while was sweet and memorable. i been into juvenile, fights, conflicts, fun times, sad times, felt insecure, and most importantly i felt the love that i never felt before.

This is to all and mainly to that someone you guys might know. I miss those memorable times we had together, and you were the first one who really put me into a serious relationship, and i do love the happy and sad experience, because this is life, without all this life would never be completed. As i always said to you, your eyes gives out a certain sparkle that looks like stars right up high in the skies, its flashes with joy, and i was the one who mainly destroys it and it couldnt be wind around anymore. i am here to tell you how i felt and how i missed those days with you together. The times you hold my hand really tight, and its just felt that i never want to let go, when you hug me, i can feel the warmness inside, its like how a mother held tight her first born.

The best thing that happen with you was we both went out on our own at lagoon, things was wild, even minute we just hold hands and we spent our time together, i love and missed that feeling so much, and wish i could do it again. I remember when you were sick, i make soup but it spilled before it got there, i rush to make porridge just for you, but sadly your mom doesnt allows it, cause she say its not healthy for people to eat porridge when they are sick and i am still wondering why. I rush to your house when you told people are trying to come in to your house, indeed i am worried, i flew in a cab just to get and kept you safe. We once said how gret if we could see our children playing while we are washing the dishes and start out a new life in greece, but all that couldnt happen anymore, cause of my attitude. Our dream both is to built a tree house to spent our time with the kids and lay down on the grass and feel the breeze of the wind whereas for the grass it just ripple around us and just look at the sky full of stars just like ur eyes.

I wish time could change back, but i consider my self lucky because i got a chance to be in a date with you, but i still couldnt forgive my self, cause i was to selfish, its like making you been kept in the cage. For some reason, i knew it was wrong but i dont want lose this feeling of true love with you, but in the end, i screwed up most the parts. For everyone to know, she tolerate with me too much, every arguement started out because of me, like i said i am selfish, she forgives me more than my parents, and there i said it, she does forgive me more than my parents, but one thing that i am totally happy about is she changed my life to be a better person but after it didnt work out, i promise i change to make things better soon, but i change to be a beast, a cold blooded one, who doesnt care, who has anger management all the time.

I dont really regret all my past mistakes but i regret this one the most, the one that i lose, that i screw things up. Finally i know what does love really meant, we have to give and take, but i give in so little yet i took so much. This time my parents sent me away, cause they could stand me as well, its not that my parents doesnt love me and all, its just that they want me to learn, learn how to cherish/ appreciate people around you, have a good character/ attitude, and be independent. I am sad that i will never see u guys anymore, as in my friends and my foes, but i should be thankful that god allow my parents to give me another chance.

I hope and must change my self so that i could tolerate with people in the society more, and i wanna show people that i could change and wont let people look down on me again as a spoiled brat. Even i promised i will take felicia as my wife, and i will but it all depends on god right now, but i promised to her things, mainly i would change and get the master degree. Even so i could be with her to have a family on our own but at least, i could bring a gourp of friends with her to greece because thats her dream, a place that she always wanted to go.

One day if she has a new man, i could never be selfish because everyone in this world deserve a chance, i got mine but i screw it up, i hope it could turn back but couldnt but the only thing i could do is wish for things to go better in the future. My best friend terry once told me, if you want something to work out, you have to sacrifice something, and that something is time. Indeed he is right, we all need our time to relax and slowly accept the person we hate, and i hope i could be accepted back by her in the future. Now there is space for us, we walk our different path from now, but hope one day we could make things work out and never repeat the same mistake again. No matter what happen in the coming future, you will always have my support, and sorry for all the dumb and childish things i cause through out the dating experience, and yet i still thank you.

I miss singing song and telling you stories and i love you telling me alot of stories, eventhough sometime u thought i wasnt concerntrating but i was. New beginning for both of us soon, do the best in your studies and career, one day we both will change and see the different. No matter who comes in to your life next hope he doesnt turn out a scrumbag like me. Will be leaving to australia around 4 of october or 2 days away, hope i could talk or see for the last time, and thank you for those precious memories that no moeny could ever buy.

Karma.

I am a spoiled kid, an anger management guy, a stucked up attitude person. I love spending money like water. I did so many bad stuff and karma is coming to me day by day. I lost my camera and my laptop, and i didnt want to let my mom knew bout it, but a friend told me to tell the truth. Ok, and i did, the camera was paid by justin cause he was careless and lost it, and paid the amount of 1900, and i didnt straight away paid my mom, after 2 days, was hanging out with my friends, i lost my laptop as well, and thats is the day my mom ask for my laptop, it wasnt the Imac white, or the acer, its was the imac alluminium that my mom got 2 weeks ago, and i am careless and lost it. i cant remember how i lost it, but the next thing i knew when i was in the taxi, i realize my hand was empty and so light, and yes it was my fault. In the process of going home, i went and buy cigg, and a moto just bang my leg, i fall and feel the pain and preassure was rushing, i went to the hospital, and my parents was there. At that moment i didnt talk much, cause i was scared, so everything they asked i just nodge my head.

Following day terry visited me at the hospital, and everything was fine, i check out with him and my family and have dinner together. Later when i was home, my mom ask for the laptop, and i am speechless, i told her, i lost it, and i lost the camera as well, i got slap, yelled, and everything. I plan to ran out to get some air but i slip and fell from the stairs, mom was shocked and dad cried, they thought i was trying to suicide, but i wasnt, i am just having a bad luck and karma, my parents bring me to the hospital, and got my x ray done. and the report will be out tomorrow.

i barely can walk, but i insisit to go home, because i miss home. every step i take, tears felt like falling, i cant dance or run, doctor advice me not too as well. The following day, the report came out, and a phone rang to my mothers phone. At 3 pm my mom told me to get ready cause at 6 we have to go to sunway medical. Well the doctor, said he sent the x ray to the nuelogist, and they said, i sprang my back towards the lower side, and a part of my joint crack on my right leg. When i heard what he said, i was just a total speechless, they can do operation, but they gave me 10 tablets of pain killer to witness and see the process, they require me to finish it, and visit the doctor again in 2 weeks. But what he said was, when the painkiller doesnt work, or you still felt the pain after taking it, i have to go for surgery but if i am ok, i dont need too.

Now i walk like a cripple, i am not allowed to dance for 2 months plus. i felt like i am a disable person. I lost everything. My parents scold with harshfull words before i fell, i dont treat you as my son ; you go do what ever you want, we dont care anymore ; we think that you are dead from now one, dont call us daddy or mommy. But after taking my report, my mom told me that they wanna sent me back to the states or Australia to study, they say is best for me to live there, Well i cant do anything much, cause i am living under their roof, so i just agree, The States College was UCLA, where as the on in AUS was Martion College, i checked the college at the web and perfer to enter martin cause its what i want as well. At least i could have a new life, and fresh start, and a new beginning in life. Before i go, i told my mom, i want to remove all my tattoos, and she let me too, and my mom said, once you get a chance to be accepted in Australia or back to the states, be independent and more mature in life.

I learnt alot when karma happens, bad things come when you do bad things, good things will give in return if you do some. i regret all my wrong doing, but i am happy i did some good stuff, but i didnt manage to do more than the bad ones.